Jesus, Jesus, could you tell me what the problem is
With the world and all the people in it?
Because I've been hearing stories about the end of the world
But I'm in love with a girl and I don't wanna leave her
And the television screams such hideous things
They're talking about the war on the radio
They say the whole thing's gonna blow
And we will all be left alone
No we'll be dead and we won't know what hit us
Jesus, Jesus, if you're up there won't you hear me
'Cause I've been wondering if you're listening for quite a while
And Jesus, Jesus, it's such a pretty place we live in
And I know we fucked it up, please be kind
Don't let us go out like the dinosaurs
Or blown to bits in a third world war
There are a hundred different things I'd still like to do
I'd like to climb to the top of the Eiffel Tower
Look up from the ground at a meteor shower
And maybe even raise a family
Jesus, Jesus, there are those that say they love you
But they have treated me so damn mean
And I know you said "forgive them for they know not what they do"
But sometimes I think they do
And I think about you
If all the heathens burn in hell, do all their children burn as well?
What about the Muslims and the gays and the unwed mothers?
What about me and all my friends?
Are we all sinners if we sin?
Does it even matter in the end if we're unhappy?
Jesus, Jesus, I'm still looking for answers
Though I know that I won't find them here tonight
But Jesus, Jesus, could you call me if you have the time?
And maybe we could meet for coffee and work it out
And maybe then I'll understand what it's all about
This song doesn't necessarily coincide with my beliefs but it struck home as I listened to it. There are so many problems, questions, doubts, fears, and God is not always visibly interacting with us. I’ve asked why He could let something like “this” happen, why He doesn't fix everything and just make everyone happy and peaceful. I’ve doubted his existence, doubted his power, doubted his ability to fix things. I’ve left Him out of my daily routine and I very nearly left Him behind when I left for college. I have essentially LIVED this song and I go through periods of hating myself for it. Then I step back and I realize, this isn’t what He wants. He doesn’t want me to hate myself for having doubts or being scared or leaving Him behind. Sure, it saddens Him when I do these things, but ultimately, all He wants is for me is to come back to Him, to believe in Him and love Him, and to share Him and His love with others. No doubt, it will be a constant, challenging test of my faith, especially while I’m at school but I know that if I trust in Him, and with enough of the right types of support, I can strengthen my faith in Him, even beyond what I had as a child.
Whether you believe in the same God as me, different Gods, or no God at all, this song can still speak to you. We are all more or less seeing, hearing about, and experiencing the same social problems. We all have doubts and fears about our government, wars, poverty, basic needs being met, and many other things. We all also have the same basic goals: to be successful in whatever we do, to be happy, to be a part of a loving, caring family, no matter what the makeup of that family may be. With all these similarities, you’d think we would be willing to sit down and talk to each other about our doubts and fears more often, to get things off our chests and relieve our minds. Here’s your chance to start. I’ve always offered to be an outlet for my friends to talk to if they ever have a problem or want to get something off their chest but I’ve never made a wide-spread effort to allow people to get things off their chest. This is my first attempt:
I have set up two e-mail accounts, caresandfears@hotmail.com and advice.please@hotmail.com . If you have any problems, any doubts, any fears that you just need to get off your chest without the feeling that someone will judge you, feel free to send them to the first one. This one is completely anonymous. I have set up the account purely for this purpose and I will never check it again. I used a password that is completely unique to the account and one that I will not remember 2 days from now.
If you have problems or questions you want advice or feedback on, send them to the second one. If you want to be anonymous, that’s fine too! Check out a disposable e-mail account such as the one at http://mytrashmail.com/ . Make sure you find one in which you can receive replies back or leave some other way of contacting you if this is the method you use. I will do my best to answer and advise and if I can’t personally help you, I’ll try to get you in touch with someone who can. You can also send cares and fears to this one if you want someone (me) to see them. If you don’t want feedback and just want to share, simply specify that in the e-mail and I will do nothing more than read it.
11/17/2009
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